Success and confidence is what i wanted from 2014. So far, neither. I have had no job success and my confidence is at an all time low. I've been so irritable this month. Ignoring people, sleeping as much as i can and not bothering to do things. I dont understand what's wrong.
Also i am finding it harder and harder to keep my relationship under wraps. I'm sure mum knows something, but i dont feel ready to tell her until i have a full time job. Thats what it's always been. Sigh. It's getting really stressful, and i still havent found a moment to just cry. Everyone is on half term this week, so thats a bummer. I wonder if the problem is me or mum? I mean, i know that i've never really been able to tell her things...she always shouts and puts me in the wrong...maybe thats why?
Work is giving me less hours, the NHS thing is kinda pissing me off and i cant be bothered to much to be honest with it (just like everything else in my life).
I just cant be bothered with life these day....
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