Modelling ?

I really want to model. I have no idea why. I feel like its the only thing i can be OK at. You know, the photographer tries to find your good side and exploits it; and then the computer editor fixes up all the issues. 

I mean, its sad to say that it would be the only thing that i want to do right now, but i really dont know what to do with this whole 'finding full time employment' business, because i am not gonna kid myself, i am shit and noone wants me. A degree is clearly not enough to convince people to hire you.... :/ 
I am seriously bitter about the whole situation. /sigh/

It's mid September, still just cruising along...really unhealthy. Real bored. Unhappy that its getting cold again.

I am good at complaining. haha. 

About a month later....

September....

12 hours shifts at work....
Jobs offered are filled because of their stupidity or mine...
Learning to cook, slowly...
Wanting to get my own place...
Autumn is here...its raining...and cold...
I love Lewis. 
I still need to work on my issues....
Music is fabulous.
Period cramps and throwing up sucks...
I wanna eat.....

A real mix last month, i dont know.