End of another month

It's going so fast. They say time goes fast when you are having fun! Maybe i am having fun? I don't know.

Well, its been about 2 weeks since i've seen Lewis properly, its a bit unnerving; but i'm surviving, maybe a little better than he is. It scared me that someone can relie on someone else so much. Ok, maybe not that far, but care so much and want to be with them often. I guess i'm still not all that ready for this.

So, job hunting has stalled at the moment which is frustrating because i really want to get out of retail, i've been doing 28 hour weeks leaving hardly any time for myself or social life; in fact. Oh well. 

Not much to say, i really want to tell the family about him, but babysteps. Oh, also thinking of going Scotland with the visuals in august :D

I love you

I know it! He said it, he did! omg. I felt it. It's like a soppy love story falling into place. Being friends for over 2 years, one fall for the other, the other likes them too but is blind as a bat to see anything until it happens. aosifjuhyghsjgeoihgdjs
Just too many feelings. 

Ok, so apart from my happy love life, work is going alright. I still dont like it so i am job hunting to find something else. Sad truth being i have woken without knowing what it is i want to do with my life. Kinda depressing to be honest. But i wont give into it, i will stay positive (yuck). 

February

WHERE HAS THIS MONTH GONE!?

Wow.

Well i;ve been at my work for about a month now and its going ok. I still dont like retail and i dont like some of the work and everyone; but its alright. 

Today my back hurts :/

Planning holidays is nice. Going places is nice. Not arguing and staying home is nice. Growing up is ok.